Explanation
I feel the visitors need an explanaion as to the lack of updates on here, but I tried to write one out earlier and sorta broke down a bit. I have been off work for over a month now as I haven't been too well. I can't really explain how I am feeling, just that it's not good. Thats the easy bit over with... it's the next bit I found difficult, however, I wrote a blog on Myspace a couple of days ago, and I have copied it below for you...
On February 29th 2008 my sister gave birth to twins - five months premature. Sad times. She had a baby boy first, named Lewis. Then the baby girl, named Mikayla. On the evening of March 1st both babies passed away from bleeding to the brain. Basically, they were just too premature.
I can't begin to describe how I feel. It's the most horrible feeling in the world and I can't imagine how my baby sister must be feeling. She's only a baby herself and now she's got this to deal with. The loss of 2 tiny babies. They were so perfect on the outside too... tiny, but perfect. They had tiny little fingers with tiny little finger nails. I cant stop crying for her. I know it doesn't help the situation, but it's the only way I seem to be able to deal with it.
Tomorrow they have to go to the registry office and register the births and the deaths at the same time. Then they have to start funeral arrangements. Claire is only 19. How will she be able to cope with all this?! It's just so hard to comprehend.
My only thought now is WHY?
Please bear with me. Updates will resume soon, I promise.
Nikki on 03.06.08 @ 10:03 PM UK [link]